Aaahhhhnnnnn
when I stop for just a couple moments to remember all stuffs liiike... OCTOBER 2000, anything like that, or to consider what gawn on since AROUND that time... just... I fuckin' well up like a fuckin emo-champion or somesuch fuckin bullshit...
I can't nevah get that days back... and they was fuckin squandered as well (social tard ++++++)

And weighing it all up with what I am now
ohhhh fuck
I have wasted and am wasting my life.
Je Suis Retard (I Am Late)
I am a retard.

Today I was supposed to go to Glasgow, but I fucked that up.
My sciatica was so bad I could hardly fucking walk.
I've done fucking nothing all day. I've been sitting here since 6pm. It's 5am now. aaaahn..


Will I ever get it back?