Muck, smeck, and I stare at the fucking walls. For hours.
All I got is stuff I pure fuckin hate

O call to arms snipers what need practice; I'll be outside on Gloucester Road today. Shoot my fucking brains out for fuck's sake

staring at the fucking walls. Goddamnit I hate it here. Everything blah blah blah blah blah oh grow up so the world isn't how you wanted it to be when you were a kid. Fucking asshole.

My mind is no picnic and I really don't want to wake up tomorrow.

As soon as I get off the bus, it all hits me, the oh fuck.... yeah.. the my life.......
and I get into my flat........ oh yeah..... all this
I get online......... all this..............

Faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack Fuck fuck et cet er rah

so much so I wish I could go back 10 years and not fuck up EVERYTHING
But still I can't. Just sit about in muck-brain and reality knowing that I and everything I am and do is dross forever now and always. Welcome to the rest of my life, reeeeeeeeeeeeeetard

see me by my legs what wallow and flail

sprint sprint back to hovel and whimper a fuckn curse
Clutches at straws, me I do and fill a bucket with wet sightsz

In othre words aaaah aaaaah aaaaah aaaaaah aaaah aaaaaaaaaaah aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

I just realised that I don't count

Late night ASDA shopping trip (cycling home with two large carrier bags = tuff)

3x Cans of Mackerel in Tomato Sauce
3x Cans of Tuna Chunks in Spring Water
1 Litre Strawberry Milk
1/2 Litre Semi Skimmed Milk
5x Red Chief apples
1x Banana
1x 500g pot of fat free Natural Yoghurt
1x 250g pot of fat free Greek Yoghurt
1x Muller Cherry Yoghurt pot
1x Bag of dried berries
6x Pack of Diet Vimto
1x Bottle of Acacia Honey
1x 500g Loaf of Dark German Rye Bread
1x Readymade Lentil Salad
1x 200g Pack of Low Fat Soft Cheese with Garlic and Herbs

One day I'm gonna ride my bike into the sky and disappear

fuck off I'm sick of it alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll (blah blah blah whine teen bullshit fuckwank)

It's the most wonderful time of the year

Today I spazzed out and had a fit curled up in my chair pulling my hair out and growling I DO NOT KNOW in inhuman tones. Then I passed out and woke up an hour later with a huge fucking pain in my back because I'd conked out at the wrongest angle.

LOL

I hate myself (shut up get over it you stupid whiny post-teen/midlife crisis goth bullshit asshole STOP FUCKING MOANING YOU INDECENT SHITBAG, WHAT FUCKING RIGHT DO YOU HAVE TO FUCKING MOAN ABOUT ANYTHING YOU SNIVELLING PIECE OF FUCKWIPE?! JUST SHUT THE ABSOLUTE FUCK UP, YOU DEPRESSING DRILLING DIRGE OF A MAN.)

Happy goddamn birthday.